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Monday, July 13, 2026

Poverty

Plastic covering
Fried food on small paper plates
Buttered leftovers

Minimum wages
Stretched thin laying in his seat
Rolling in the mud 

Drowning in the debt
Breathing with nostrils of smoke
A smoke break of peace

Little crises adding fuel 
Dollar Tree thrills, nipping heels 
Driving nowhere far

Stuck to the death loop
Sipping delicious poison 
She left the stove on
As a biracial, cis-woman raised in Midwest America by a poor German family that believed the church or the army was the only salvation, I've been trying to encapsulate my corner of the poverty pie to those I call friends today. 

First and foremost, f*ck the 1%. It all comes back down to capitalism, baby. 

So my battle isn't against, necessarily, the avocado toast eating neighbor or Ferrari revving coworker. It's been written more elegantly, but the disadvantages in life could be explained through a card game. Let's say the simple game of War, where every player is to dealt out the same amount of cards. The immediate problem is there's only 52 cards and the individual decks changed base on the count of players. This echoes the limited amount of Earth's resources. How do we deal with that? 

History shows us that if we were a person of color, a woman, a nonconformist, (anything outside heterosexual white male Christian normative) we were taken away 'cards ' immediately and/or skipped entirely. Those under the boot of colonizers weren't allowed in the game. 

How does it feel to not only be out of the game, but forced to serve those who continue to play it? How does it feel to not only be forced to toil, but be belittled and tormented, ridiculed and disected? Years and years bent over, then molded and beaten into something unrecognizable. When does their test rat say enough? When does their pet rat revolt and they say "it's always been violent!"

My poverty is not mine to blame despite adding more water to the ocean. Yes, I swam to the deep end to see how far I could get.  Yes, the water swept into my mouth and these lungs became heavy, but you gotta understand... I've always lived around smoke. It was in the room, in the clothes, in my hair. I carried that smoke like a champion. I was born in that smoke. Her father died from that smoke. I choke, but I survived off that smoke...teasing death with little breath was our bed time story. 
So when you offer that dollar or perhaps a thousand, you take a cup out of this ocean. You may even get to see the tops of my lips... But I'm still bobbing, I'm still out there lost in sea drowning. 

So f*ck the 1%, because there's always others worse off than me.

Poverty

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

Dissipate

Flooded, unconcerned 
Breathing with expanded lungs
Clenched heart above rain

Beauty stealing breaths
Snapping voices stealing breaths
Rope from fan last breaths 

Baby a Monster
House of cards type of labels 
Four fingers point back

Nursing readied gun 
Apologized afterwards 
Never when tears flowed

Vampires can't love 
Can't feel the draining life force
Can't be warmed by touch

Spotted rose she picked
Colors Rose couldn't accept
Blooming in her death

Cold brushed against thorns
Never iron sharpening
Touching avoided

Taking compliments 
Giving shade never comfort 
Meaness like a root

Sickened by the pride
Throwing up in her trash can
Dried flowers hang

Biting the mirror
Image like the rotting cup 
Context is guardrails




Monday, May 11, 2026

Mother's Day

I have nothing to say.

I have everything to say.

She wouldn't listen.

So you take a listen.

I took the lesson.

What could I say?

How much sorrow is hidden?

Rekindling flames of inquisition.

Burning bridges.

Heavy with the baggage.

Smoking with oxygen.

A combustion of a once union.

The homework, a daughter.

Her homework, a porclien heart.

Our memories stained like grape juice on linen.

Why should this day matter?

Thanks for nothing. 

Thanks for everything.

Brokenness taught me how to run.

Running away looks different at thirty. 

This isn't playing dirty.

Who should feel guilty? 

Everyone in moderation.

Canal to coffin.

Happy Mother's Day. 

Something I couldn't say.