We are all in them. All part of what society has warped and twisted to make into just another good tasting 'mocha' to say the least. We have all settled into the causalities, the traditions and the mediocrity (look it up) that makes up the church of today. Yes. Sadly, we have all fallen from our true love! [read Revelation 2:2-5 & 3:15]. The one thing that erks me the most about denominations is that people get soo caught up in their church's ways, their church's groups, their church's chili cook off.....that they are desensitised by the nature Christ first wanted them and they simply forget who they are!
As Mufasa puts it in The Lion King: "REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE!..." you are not just Baptist, Catholic, Lutheran, Pentecostal, Charismatic and/or non-denominational. That maybe the little sticky-note name tag you plaster on the side of your petticoat before you walk outside, but the seal Christian is the umbrella all who have a personal and active relationship with Jesus are under. Stay tuned (America)! Listen up! This might turn your whole world upside down!
Going to church, even tithing to a church, getting baptized through a church or even getting confirmed because the church told you to DOES NOT SAVE YOU!
What a grand, grand fall we have fallen! The gap between us and our Creator, the Lord of Hosts is wider and steeper than the what the whole Grand Canyon could even bestow. (read Romans 6:23...heck just read all of Romans!) How dare we think that our measly efforts as human beings-flawed, nothing but a speck of dust (James 4:14b), could make things right or even pretend everything is all right with God! Maybe we need refreshing on who God is or who we are or why and how He chose to make the great fall into the chasm we were to take!........
My brothers and sisters do away with what divides not only you, but us as a whole. "There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; one Lord, one faith,one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all."-Ephesians 4:4-6
Are you missing out on what it's really ALL about? Is religion (because that's what you make it when you're trying to get right with God on your own.-Ephesians 2) the rut you've let your self become a part of? I encourage you to start analyzing what you believe and why. Now am I saying denominations are of the Devil? No! Absolutely not. If it weren't for all of the different styles of worship there are today, there would be a whole lot of us not knowing the power of the Who can save us individually. However, denominations can threaten your growth. You MUST always be diving into the Word of God, the Holy Bible (God's only, perfect, love-letter to His people) to know what is being taught or what is going on is what He desires.
*who knows maybe God's telling you to move on and attend somewhere else? Is that sin? Read the Bible.
Love (Hebrews 10:24-25 Ephesians 6: 23-24),Samantha
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
From the Top
The name is MICK. It stands for 'who's my Master? Overriding Insecurities. Past Calamities and the blade of Kindness.' These are the words from the head, as it hunts the broken and bloody frame. This is the story of them. One person, many fractions. You decide one or many. While I will simply call it as it is-
MICK, sits while the others run. The joy in their eyes as another journey has begun. Glancing to the West with slits. MICK forcibly swallows its yesterdays. You see when Satan comes, He doesn't simply leave...and you just kiss the lips of lack of better words: shit. MICK knew the rolls and the throws. Up upon a stage it sang songs that lock up the tongue, clench the teeth, brake children's following feet....
Clutches lay to your left, MICK. Why won't you pick them up? "Because they've held me up." you've said. "MICK, what is that noise from your chest?" "Do you dare to try and listen? When you have been so willing to throw away your breath, you bring execution to many. My heart wasn't made for this, but it looked like the wild so I took my expedition. Through the holes of iron-clads, I stopped the progress... and yet, so much more."
The day always holds unbroken promises, even when the sun is captivated by the clouds. MICK, you sit still as if your still held. MICK, don't believe in empty words...those lies....those hurdles.
"Maybe I can face this alone and alone I will be fine. Fine comes to calm the nerves, like Hemlock that shut the mouths of the great philosophers. Is this who I am? In this place, in this green grass I sit."
"But LOOK LOOK, not only feel. Death is not underneath you nor beside you. GET UP! For rest comes in an action unknown to man. There is MORE to come, MORE to become!"
You, MICK...to you I reach, I stretch, I descend.
I remember, once upon a time in the middle of the night your great Spirit-it whispered in this crevasse...it said a name. I remember, I remember once upon a time a bright light invaded my invasive dreams and night tares.
In front of the door you've boarded it up with dressers and nightstands.
MICK,
That is not your name although it may be your game.
Let's get this right before you lift those wobbling hands.
Your name is .......
When have you ever had the right to declare exactly?
"You lift and turn my face heaven-ward. Am I really bought? Everything I thought...they now roll down to my toes like a bullet."
MICK
Masterpiece
In My Hands
Cared for
Kept forever
MICK, sits while the others run. The joy in their eyes as another journey has begun. Glancing to the West with slits. MICK forcibly swallows its yesterdays. You see when Satan comes, He doesn't simply leave...and you just kiss the lips of lack of better words: shit. MICK knew the rolls and the throws. Up upon a stage it sang songs that lock up the tongue, clench the teeth, brake children's following feet....
Clutches lay to your left, MICK. Why won't you pick them up? "Because they've held me up." you've said. "MICK, what is that noise from your chest?" "Do you dare to try and listen? When you have been so willing to throw away your breath, you bring execution to many. My heart wasn't made for this, but it looked like the wild so I took my expedition. Through the holes of iron-clads, I stopped the progress... and yet, so much more."
The day always holds unbroken promises, even when the sun is captivated by the clouds. MICK, you sit still as if your still held. MICK, don't believe in empty words...those lies....those hurdles.
"Maybe I can face this alone and alone I will be fine. Fine comes to calm the nerves, like Hemlock that shut the mouths of the great philosophers. Is this who I am? In this place, in this green grass I sit."
"But LOOK LOOK, not only feel. Death is not underneath you nor beside you. GET UP! For rest comes in an action unknown to man. There is MORE to come, MORE to become!"
You, MICK...to you I reach, I stretch, I descend.
I remember, once upon a time in the middle of the night your great Spirit-it whispered in this crevasse...it said a name. I remember, I remember once upon a time a bright light invaded my invasive dreams and night tares.
In front of the door you've boarded it up with dressers and nightstands.
MICK,
That is not your name although it may be your game.
Let's get this right before you lift those wobbling hands.
Your name is .......
When have you ever had the right to declare exactly?
"You lift and turn my face heaven-ward. Am I really bought? Everything I thought...they now roll down to my toes like a bullet."
MICK
Masterpiece
In My Hands
Cared for
Kept forever
Sunday, January 13, 2013
journalling to keep me out of trouble
>>Is it prideful to post pictures of one's self online? What is even the point? You get a sudden change of appearance and for what? Do not say for yourself, because deep down you know it is really for them. You say you don't live to please the crowds, but for Jesus. You say you give Him your all, but we both know it's not true. You want to be better than the next guy, especially that one guy....And why?Just so you can get the attention of another guy....am I making any sense?Ringing any bells? Should you confess to the people you are jealous of that you are jealous of them? What good comes from that? Sermon tonight was about the comparison trap by Andy Stanely. The question that hit me was a fill in the blank: I'll never be as........as them. Too many times I say: I'll never be as good as them. But why? Why can't I be fine with who I am?With the way I look?The way I act? The way I respond?It is also sad to admit that yes, I have been one of those people who secretly would want the next guy to fail. What sin we live in....what sin I live in. I say I love these people, then why would I ever think such thing? Even if I achieved everything the next person has, I will still have nothing because I am not being myself and that is who people truly love/appreciate the most. How many more times must I be reminded of those lessons I have already learned from the Lord; maybe that is why they call them "life lessons". Was called out today for acknowledging/standing up for love -this case mainly in a discussion over a couple on TV who has only known each other for a short period of time.And as much as I have said to myself privately that I know nothing about love, even though I also say to myself that I love someone, I know one major factor about love.Jesus. God is soooo amazing. I was stressed out last night praying about different things and He took me to John 18:1-12.And with diving into those short verses I saw how God was speaking to me on how to handle some of my situations.For example He knew I was going to look up the reference verse on the bottom of the page for vrs 9, John 6:39. He knew then I would see this note I wrote in there idk when which said:"God's will is not that specific like go to college or work full-time, it's be holy."Now I know we can console God on specific things and He can guide us to where He has planned/desired. But I strongly believe that what He has willed the most for us is to be simply holy.And man, did that strike me 1) because it was like a slap in the face in regards to how I was how I was praying for certain people and 2) reminded me that in a way God doesn't care where I go, as long as I am set apart for Him. Need to ask one's self, how can I (don't be general, get really frank) be set apart? In the back of mind I think that my personality will change to help me be more adoptable to the college life because no one will previously know me.But truth is, I will not change.If I end up going to Western College I will have to work at being set apart from the parting crowds but yet work on really ministering or if I end up going to Metro in Denver I will have to work on being set apart with not getting stuck in the seclusion mode.-These statements are gathered from reviews I read online, have no idea if they are true. I literally have noooooo clue what the future holds. I just need to be faithful is all I know for a fact.You ever think about death? Ever think about how you will die or about how people will respond? Is that prideful too?I have discovered ever since this one lady pointed out that my violence shows up in the youtube videos I watch (which were really just cartoons guys) but I am really violent on the inside. What is that from?The past? My history? Or is it normal?Reminded me also of the Sermon on how I wish I could just go up to a stranger and say: "you are enough." I need that said to me. "You are fine. You are okay."And like I wish to say it everyone, I would want it to be said sincerely not rushed or a "let's push this to the side" kind of manner. Something about me, I mostly encourage people the most when I feel the worst about myself. Idk why. Perhaps because it was something I thought was a good idea in Jr. High when I first feel in love with God,that when I was having a bad day I would make it my goal to outreach to someone to make their day better.Is that even healthy? I suppose you could think of both positives and negatives. Another question, when being confronted on something how do you not carry that feeling into assuming that you are doing everything wrong?Kind of back to the sermon, we all just need a constant encourager person to follow us all day.....or perhaps we already have them but don't tune in enough...cough cough God.hahah.I just know I have a huge issue on when ever I get confronted on something I immediately wish I could change everything about myself regardless if it is fine or not. I want to starve myself, work myself to death, and be ultimately submissive. Where does this come from?I'm always left with more questions than I can answer, but that's the definition of life now isn't it?:)<<
Like Samson (Judges 13-16, Numbers 6:1-21,Mark 16)
*if you could imagine a really hardcore song, this would be it (full of moshing and awe) ;)
Righteous Anger
"I have heard of your paintings too, well enough. God hath given you one face, and you make yourselves another. You jig and amble, and you lisp; you nickname God's creatures and make your wantoness your igorance."
-Hamlet, Hamlet Act III scene i lines 150-154a
Please, someone make it clear to me why we are so ignorant and ignore the God of gods, the Lord of all creation? Why we 'justify' our sinful nature, pretend everything is alright when we know it's not? I'm not saying I am exempt here, I am not all who you think I'm cracked up to be-I fail, I screw up, I ask for forgiveness and I still sin!Yikes! This should not be this way!
"It is impossible for those who have once been enlightened, who have tasted the heavenly gift, who have shared in the Holy Spirit, who have tasted the goodness of the word of God and the powers of the coming age and who have fallen away, to be brought back to repentance.To their loss they are crucifying the Son of God all over again and subjecting him to public disgrace."- Hebrews 6:4-6
"Talk about our fixer-uppers" as Timon simply puts it as they walk on the outskirts of what used to be the magnificent Pride Rock in The Lion King. (Of course I had to quote my favorite movie! :)) Don't let me tell yah what we need to fix, let's dive into the Word of God!!! Which brings me to the next conflict:Why aren't we seeking more of Him? Who is He again, hmm... let's see- He is Worthy, Mighty, Indescribable, Awesome, Unchanging, Strong, Lovely, Great, Powerful, Judge, Personal, Deliverer, Prince of Peace, Author, Finisher, Faithful, Just, Beginning & End, Unstoppable, Everlasting Father...the list can go on forever people! Start discover Truth!
"We have much to say about this, but it is hard to make it clear to you because you no longer try to understand. In fact, though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you the elementary truths of God's word all over again. You need milk, not solid food!Anyone who lives on milk, being still an infant, is not acquainted with the teaching about righteousness. But solid food is for the mature, who by constant use have trained themselves to distinguish good from evil." - Hebrews 5:11-14
I adore teaching, but my heart breaks that so many are purposely denying to acknowledge a daily walk with the One who never fades!If you doubt, seek Him! If your fearful, seek Him! If you just want to be held, seek Him! Seek Him while He may be found! Because I tell you the truth, there will come a day when it will be too late!! How heart- breaking for the Bridegroom to return and not know you!
I was praying last night about this matter in a way and God took me to this verse-Romans9:2 (look it up and read the whole chapter!) Even though this is Paul speaking, I can't help but wonder if the same comes from the mouth of Christ. His heart is breaking. He is waiting for all those who have fallen to get back up, for all those who ran away to return. He knows exactly what your doing, so why do you keep fighting? O How He loves you. He does, He really does.
>>Don't Waste Your Life.
>Heck, is it even your life to waste?
-Hamlet, Hamlet Act III scene i lines 150-154a
Please, someone make it clear to me why we are so ignorant and ignore the God of gods, the Lord of all creation? Why we 'justify' our sinful nature, pretend everything is alright when we know it's not? I'm not saying I am exempt here, I am not all who you think I'm cracked up to be-I fail, I screw up, I ask for forgiveness and I still sin!Yikes! This should not be this way!
"It is impossible for those who have once been enlightened, who have tasted the heavenly gift, who have shared in the Holy Spirit, who have tasted the goodness of the word of God and the powers of the coming age and who have fallen away, to be brought back to repentance.To their loss they are crucifying the Son of God all over again and subjecting him to public disgrace."- Hebrews 6:4-6
"Talk about our fixer-uppers" as Timon simply puts it as they walk on the outskirts of what used to be the magnificent Pride Rock in The Lion King. (Of course I had to quote my favorite movie! :)) Don't let me tell yah what we need to fix, let's dive into the Word of God!!! Which brings me to the next conflict:Why aren't we seeking more of Him? Who is He again, hmm... let's see- He is Worthy, Mighty, Indescribable, Awesome, Unchanging, Strong, Lovely, Great, Powerful, Judge, Personal, Deliverer, Prince of Peace, Author, Finisher, Faithful, Just, Beginning & End, Unstoppable, Everlasting Father...the list can go on forever people! Start discover Truth!
"We have much to say about this, but it is hard to make it clear to you because you no longer try to understand. In fact, though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you the elementary truths of God's word all over again. You need milk, not solid food!Anyone who lives on milk, being still an infant, is not acquainted with the teaching about righteousness. But solid food is for the mature, who by constant use have trained themselves to distinguish good from evil." - Hebrews 5:11-14
I adore teaching, but my heart breaks that so many are purposely denying to acknowledge a daily walk with the One who never fades!If you doubt, seek Him! If your fearful, seek Him! If you just want to be held, seek Him! Seek Him while He may be found! Because I tell you the truth, there will come a day when it will be too late!! How heart- breaking for the Bridegroom to return and not know you!
I was praying last night about this matter in a way and God took me to this verse-Romans9:2 (look it up and read the whole chapter!) Even though this is Paul speaking, I can't help but wonder if the same comes from the mouth of Christ. His heart is breaking. He is waiting for all those who have fallen to get back up, for all those who ran away to return. He knows exactly what your doing, so why do you keep fighting? O How He loves you. He does, He really does.
>>Don't Waste Your Life.
>Heck, is it even your life to waste?
"When did I lose my Joy, O my God?"
>>So there I was pondering about...well we will leave that detail to my critics, but something grabbed my attention-When did my attention become sooo consumed by this something, that my heart no longer fluttered for my God? When did my mind stop finding pure entertainment from the one I call King? When did my joy in my Savior reduce to a temporary happiness?!! Well, God seemed to address these convictions in my soul, as well as something much bigger-
Grab a Holy Bible or go tohttp://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%202&version=TNIV and look up: *Ephesians 2* (it is filled with many discussions, but we will only touch on one, I provoke any of you though to further engage me with them some time!)
-Let verses 11-13 resonate in your mind
Turn to or click to *Psalm 122*
-Do you notice any similarities?
Well, I did. I noticed both focus on Israel or the Israelites. This might be a touchy topic for some considering recent events, but this gives all the more reason to keep reading....So who were/are the Israelites? As dictionary.com summarizes and stands in appraise to the scriptures they are: descendants of Jacob, especially a member of the Hebrew people who inhabited the ancient kingdom of Israel & God's chosen people. So what does this have to do with us? Why should the death of someone in the Middle East, politics with people we barely agree with, and revolutions that play no interest to us at all, actually make a difference in our worldview?
Look at Eph. 2:11-13 again. They are us! We (meaning those who are Christians and born Israelites) are family! Whoa! Sorry if I'm stepping on some toes, I am just reading the Word of the One True God. I am reminded of that scene in Lion King 2 Simba's Pride when Kiara (Simba's daughter) speaks to him right when he is at a face off with his mortal enemy (Kiara's future mother- in-law): "Them? Us?Look at them...they are us!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jP7gD9TRhSo
So how does this tie into Psalm 122? Take a closer look at verses 6-9.
If I could tie these two passages together I would say: "We need to to start sharing peace with our fellow brothers and sisters (Ps. 122: 8-9), and it can't come from ourselves (Eph. 2:8-10)"
the thrones of the house of David."- Psalm 122:5
" Therefore, remember..."-Eph. 2:11
=the King of kings.
Grab a Holy Bible or go tohttp://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%202&version=TNIV and look up: *Ephesians 2* (it is filled with many discussions, but we will only touch on one, I provoke any of you though to further engage me with them some time!)
-Let verses 11-13 resonate in your mind
Turn to or click to *Psalm 122*
-Do you notice any similarities?
Well, I did. I noticed both focus on Israel or the Israelites. This might be a touchy topic for some considering recent events, but this gives all the more reason to keep reading....So who were/are the Israelites? As dictionary.com summarizes and stands in appraise to the scriptures they are: descendants of Jacob, especially a member of the Hebrew people who inhabited the ancient kingdom of Israel & God's chosen people. So what does this have to do with us? Why should the death of someone in the Middle East, politics with people we barely agree with, and revolutions that play no interest to us at all, actually make a difference in our worldview?
Look at Eph. 2:11-13 again. They are us! We (meaning those who are Christians and born Israelites) are family! Whoa! Sorry if I'm stepping on some toes, I am just reading the Word of the One True God. I am reminded of that scene in Lion King 2 Simba's Pride when Kiara (Simba's daughter) speaks to him right when he is at a face off with his mortal enemy (Kiara's future mother- in-law): "Them? Us?Look at them...they are us!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jP7gD9TRhSo
So how does this tie into Psalm 122? Take a closer look at verses 6-9.
- Why is David (the Psalmist) praying for peace?
- Why is he asking for security?
- WHY AREN'T WE? (In regards to the Middle East, God's chosen ones [the original chosen ones], our family?)
If I could tie these two passages together I would say: "We need to to start sharing peace with our fellow brothers and sisters (Ps. 122: 8-9), and it can't come from ourselves (Eph. 2:8-10)"
- What does this mean to you/for you?
- Is it just changing the course of your speech be enough? Or is it something more?
- If something more, what? *I believe a huge part of that answer or in answering any puzzle, is first noting what is lost. In this case it's a WHOM.
the thrones of the house of David."- Psalm 122:5
" Therefore, remember..."-Eph. 2:11
=the King of kings.
Thursday, January 3, 2013
typical
i think you think that you know me/but I'm sit'n in the car with the engine running/could this be over before it breaks?/sapper than a Romeo & Juliet/let's look down and to the side/figured me out like a jigsaw puzzle/the pieces soggy with the mess/"I know, I know, I know" I've said/the young mind is arrogant/pattings on the back/good job at giving me slack/do you think it came upon by chance?/or was it thrown out due to the ugliness that danced?/W.A.S.Ps still sting the ears/"it's best if you don't stay here"/BLOOD ON THE FLOOR/OPEN WOUNDS AND CRIES IN THE DARK/"GET OFF OF ME! GET OFF MY BACK! SHE'S GOT MY IN A CHOCK HOLD AND I CAN'T BRAKE LOSE! MY EYE IS SHUT AND NAILS DUG DEEP IN MY SKIN!"
there is silence/there is a steep hill/rolling you down cause you tripped/sticks cut JC in your heels/"It's alright, it's okay, everyone's been this way."/but I am called to be different/does the leader given the rights guide blindly or with the Light?/cause all I hear right now is the world's lies/for these are my worries and hurts/there goes your goodbye/it's only awkward because of the situation we're in/kin smile but you teach me a love song or is that pain?/my ears, my ears, can't take you in
through every desert there is hope/let's make it a year of resilience/shuddering out the acceptance/bring me peace, bring me joy
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