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Thursday, November 23, 2023

Project Angel Fouls Part 3

     The key to successful relationships is communication. This is no exception in the workforce. To many employers, however, Managers jokingly call themselves "the parent" which translates to: "My way or the highway," "Might is Right," and "Discipline is the greatest teacher." As a person who has gotten an education in psychology and nonprofit management, I have seen how Project Angel Food falls short in regard to having a successful relationship with its employees. Even without a degree, it doesn't take long for someone to see the breakdown of communication which influences our high turnover.   

Years ago my class studied successful businesses. At the time one of the happiest places to work was Southwest Airlines. Shouldn't a nonprofit whose mission is to help save lives through healthy food echo this? Instead, I hear more and more people applying to other jobs. I repeat what I have said from the beginning- I LOVE MY JOB. In fact, it is the ONLY job that I've ever said this about. But when leadership would rather make a profit than create a lasting, stable community no matter how important the mission, the workers will become extinct. A house divided can not stand. 


Break down in communication at Project Angel Food looks like: employees getting yelled at for doing/not doing something but never being informed about the change, last-minute meeting announcements, shouting matches between staff, not honoring past agreements, and divided management. Direct examples range from arguing about where exactly on the floor the kitchen starts and dispatch ends to when our shift ends on a holiday (literally three different answers were given today). I am not saying as employees we are perfect (no one is) and I don't expect management to be either. What I am saying is as much as training is harped upon employees (in any business) to do better, the same should be required from leadership. A whole staff meeting or biweekly meetings are not going to solve all the issues if the management is not healthy. 


Many today and before me have advocated for a union. Unfortunately, with the scare tactics and stress-inducing leadership, many employees have shrunk away from continuing to fight for our rights. Signs have been put up in break rooms, in hallways, and TV screens about how great this organization is to its workers. This then creates the image that all this fighting is in vain and worse those who continue to push against this system are the "true enemy." Unions are the reasons we have breaks, vacations, sick leave, raises, etc. Unions restore the healthy balance between people. It's no longer, "I'm the parent, you are the child. I give the command, you follow." Unions allow all of our voices to be heard and actually get past the meeting's notepad. Yes, PAF has gradually worked on getting everyone's input. They even established an Employee Committee...that you have to be asked to join by management first. Unions give the workers the same legal authority to say no and yes to procedures. There are no surprise last-minute decisions leaving half the staff boiling; instead, we all come together as the team we signed up to be. Unions do not say we hate our company. It acknowledges that we are the company.


In my opinion, PAF could be one the happiest places to work just like Southwest. They have the backing and power of many influential people. For a place that gets so much air time, it should be a place its employees won't shut up about for good reasons. The power we have in the community should be backed by an even stronger team. Some solutions to this, especially as we move forward in expanding, I believe should come in the form of:

  • leadership training not just in policies but in group dynamics

    • One of the best nonprofits I've served with was the Royal Family Kids camp. We were given training through the Empowered to Connect Conference that I found so influential not only for children in foster care, but all of us (since many of us are just big children) that I introduced this material/concept to the work field. The key isn't having someone in charge telling the other what to do. It's to challenge that very mindset which then allows procedures to follow naturally rather than forced. We are in a partnership and each person is a gift. Management should promote, encourage, and equip its staff with safety, freedom of individuality, and mutual respect. Practically this looks like leadership taking courses that address psychology giving them the tools on how to work with many types of people. Refreshment courses as such are required of other professionals; why should we be any different?       

  • Team building activities 

    • For five years I was a part of a nonprofit that implemented team-building activities frequently. Team building activities can be simple and fun, challenging and impactful. They can be quick and take place around a table, but again pulling from child psychology, it is always better to do something physical (physical movement also helps the brain function better). I would recommend an outside or event space away from the office. These shouldn't be just going around the room saying your favorite movie, these should require a significant amount of time. It should bring the body together in a way that highlights everyone's abilities. Then afterward a reflection should bring about a new fund appreciation for each other. 

  • Meetings with hands-on training/reminders/walk-throughs

    • It is said that if you love what you do, you never "work" a day in your life. This is why I would suggest this particular order in restructuring the work culture at PAF. Business meetings come after management is healthy and employees are well supported. It is proven that rows separate more than unite; thus, I would suggest encircled meetings. Every meeting should be recorded in some form, include a brief summary of the last meeting, strengths, weaknesses, and areas of opportunity. Meetings should not just be all sitting down. When operations or systems change, a physical demonstration should always be carried out to accommodate those with different learning styles. For example instead of having everyone arguing about where the kitchen begins, take the staff on a walk-through so everyone gets the same message at the same time.     

  • Agreed upon clear signage w/ directions  

    • Instead of spending money on signage about how many benefits we get, we should have more signage (colorful and clear) with precise directions on how to carry out certain functions. It wasn't until earlier this year that (with the recommendation from one staff member) was a sign about the correct order of putting on kitchen equipment posted to eliminate the sore throats of the Volunteer Coordinators. This should also be done in dispatch; signs echo what should have been already physically demonstrated. All staff should know how to carry out all their duties in their department. Management likes to put the responsibility on the staff to show other staff how to do things. Although a good manager delegates, they must first make sure everyone is on the same page. It should not be the responsibility/duty of a staff member to ask how to do something after months of working there. Everything should labeled and have its designated location and everyone should be shown this. 

Project Angel Food has a motto that says: “For Life, For Love, For as long as it takes.” Greatness begins from the inside, so if we are to accomplish this mission we must do some inner work. We must walk the talk not just talk the talk.

  

Saturday, November 4, 2023

Just Symptoms

*spoken word emotional core poetry/song


It's falling madly in love

over and over again

thinking this could be the one

justifying everything they do

forcing myself to like everything about them

torn to utter pieces when they miss my mark

that I've never spoken

It's overanalyzing everything you said

and how you said it

feeling like I know what's not being said

holding in what I want to say

bottling up my emotions and going numb

It's exploding and not able to come down easily

For days I'll cry over it

It's doing everything for you

because you need to know how much you mean

then secretly hurt when you don't do the same

It's beating myself up mentally and physically

finding a razor somehow some way

scratching forcibly

punching myself repeatedly

It's feeling like I'd rather die than hurt you

and dying when you leave

It's preparing for the end

wanting to skip the beginning and middle

It's saying I'll change next week

next Sunday

on the 1st

Next year

It's knowing I'm contradictory

not simply defined

 It's forgetting what I look like

responding with a yuck when I do

thinking beauty is certain looks and angles

not believing their compliments

fishing for affirmation

having knowledge I'm pretty & feeling unhinged

It's risky sexual behavior

because I'm impulsive

because I'm scared of intimacy

because I'm not good enough for the person I want

It's spending years being taught the body is temporary

that is just a shell

that the REAL me is inside

It's years of being fed that I'm corrupt

that the body is evil

It's lighting up another after promising I was done

after I've gotten into thousands of dollars in debt

after having to go to the hospital

after no longer getting satisfaction

It's wishing I could leave everything

like that would somehow fix things

as if living on the streets is a choice

It's imagining the worst 

happening to others

and wanting the worst to happen to me

It's feeling  like I'm not here

I'm not what you see

I'm nothing


My scars don't tell everything about me

If they did,

There'd be a whole lot more of them


I hate my mind more than anything


These emotions and illogical thinking

Haunts me 


You'd think I'd be over it

But something triggers the pain, the hurt, the darkness

What can you do when you can't have 

What you want, what you need?


How do I speak?


The anxiety eats at me


I'm still bleeding


Why is this heart beating?


Life is something.