oh sweet melodies bring the numbness back to my fingers/that ache in my heart/oh wonderous wind bring with you my chills/down my spine/I'll be thinking of you
Small invasive tears rush from my eyes/sliding down these checks I've wished/
longed for their kiss/flame flicker harder/let my heart daydream of this lover
oh silly mind/how quick you are to jump ahead/ you plan of weddings and death beds/
heavy breathe hold your tongue/ just a, just a moment now/ before everything falls apart
Lust disguised as giddiness/I pick each word every so delicately/
like pulling thorns from a rose bush/who am I that you should find?
oh body how old you've gotten/child-like spirit can't you say what you mean/
I don't know who needs to hear this (probably everyone, because I almost cried so much I woke myself up)... I just now had a dream where I was performing in a play with my old high school classmates (oddly most of the time that I have dreams about them we are putting on a play or choir concert). In it, I volunteered to take the role of this person who was struggling with depression but shared their testimony of hope (my character was male, but the story could very much of been about me). For my lines I was recalling to the audience of a time I was listening to this young evangelistic preacher on TV who very passionately said the following:
"Some of you out there don't have mommas* who love you... But I have come to tell YOU that God has given you a birthday so that YOU could have PEACE in the VICTORY of God's GRACE!..God has come to give you GRACE!"
*I'll insert papas in there now as well
What a very interesting dream...the rest is too confusing to share, but I did want to share that part for sure because it is so powerful...
God DIDN'T create you for nothing and if those who were supposed to love didn't or don't, you are not alone. The Word says:
"Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I (the Lord) will not forget you!"-Isaiah 49:15
And again,
"Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close." - Psalm 27:10
There is hope. There is peace. There is a comfort that can be found in Jesus that can't be found anywhere else.
"Peace I (Jesus) leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."-John 14:27
"Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest."" -Matthew 11:28
"The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing."-Psalm 23:1
The power Jesus had comes from the Father because He himself was/is of God. The victory Jesus had was defeat over your and mine's sin on the cross. He died but rose again. There isn't anyone and there will never be anyone who can do what Jesus has already done for us. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. If you want freedom, you're really wanting Him! If you're wanting sanctuary, you're really wanting Him! If you're wanting resurrection, you're most definitely needing Him!
There is nothing you can do to separate the love of God from you:
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." -Romans 8: 38-39
His love takes hold of you regardless if you want it or not. His grace has depth, has a height, has a width and yet, it's said of like this:
"...know this love that SURPASSES knowledge—that you may be FILLED to the measure of all the FULLNESS of God." -Ephesians 3:19 (emphasizes mine)
Don't waste another second weeping over what is lost, don't waste another minute thinking this life isn't worth it, don't waste these years believing it was all for nothing.
The Lord has called YOU! His gifts are for YOU!
"Forgive me, Lord, for even as I recall your Truth pride resides in my heart. May all who see and read this understand. May all who hear and listen have this knowledge. I am loved by you. I am created to know you. I do have a peace found in the victory of your grace! Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you."
If you have never accepted who Jesus is and what He has done for you, would you consider it now?
Too many times I think we believe that just because life is going great we must already have God's blessings. However, you don't know that God gives to both the wicked and righteous; yet, their ends will be drastically different. Don't mistake God's kindness as approval, it's meant to lead you to repentance (Romans 2:4).
"So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!"- 1 Corinthians 10:12
There is no one out there who doesn't need what Christ offers, but I know some of you are just as stubborn as me and will live your life as long as you can being independent of the Truth.
I find it funny that on the days I've especially done nothing (it seems like) to deserve communion with God I continuously see hearts everywhere... in a random drawing, in the leaves, in a water spill, in a stain... Everywhere creation is POINTING to the ONE who holds it together (Colossians 1:17) and it's crying out me to WAKE UP from my slumber (Ephesians 5:17) and be the man/woman God has created me to be (Romans 8:19).
Let your relationship start here and your religion end,
"Cause all religion ever made of me
Was just a sinner with a stone tied to my feet...
And love has set me free"
-'More Like Falling In Love' by Jason Gray
