Relatable Disciples

The more I read of Mark (and in conjunction with where I am in life mentally) the more I feel like the disciples didn't struggle with (just) not understanding Jesus' teachings but that they didn't understand His love. 

Psalm from Psalms

What has our God done?

What has my God done?

Of late, of late?

He holds me with His righteous right hand-

I do not faint, do not faint.

Make music from the heart,

Sing to Him-

This the Spirit commands.

Voices in my head,

Where is my Master?

The battle against flesh, my flesh,

Is always there 

Don't forget the true enemy-

In an odd way he cares, he cares.

To bring us down away from Truth,

From light,

From love,

From peace 

Come be with me, LORD.

Come be with me.

Without you I am weak.

Morning, o'morning

Recite to me His love song 

When night comes, let the melody remain.

Forgive me, Abba-

I don't bring what you deserve.

Forgive me, my King-

I intentionally fall short.

Come fill this life,

This temporary life,

This blink of an eye,

This dust brought to life 

I long for your gates,

I long for your rest.

Help me give you my best!

Forgive me of my pride, lust, & jealousy.

Lord, help me rejoice with the assembly.

All creation knows you.

All humanity will bow.

I thank you for this moment,

Thank you for memories-

It's you alone who've taken me so far 

And places...

Cheers, to the season of changes! 

Where Am I?

When you feel yourself relating more with the snake

When being the symbolic Israel turns literal

When you're holding on but find that it's midst

When you fear your future but fear the past more

When the LORD is silent, yet beckoning

Maybe I'm losing it

Maybe I'm right where I'm supposed to be

Maybe this knife in my chest is healing

Healing my fantasies

Healing my lies

Healing my beliefs

I come to no crossroad

I come to no revealed path

I come to no wide, open field

I've come to God at last.